Straight Lads as ‘Boyfriends?’
Here I am again, using someone else’s WiFi connection to get on the web…. (roll-on my 02 connection!) Am I the only one who thinks that an ‘open’ WiFi connection is ‘open?’ If you want it to be closed and private, not shared with anyone within range, then bloody password protect it???? I could have waited till tomorrow to post, but these two posts I just HAD to get on the internet straight away.
Anyway……I was discussing with a friend yesterday the merits (and pitfalls) of having a straight-lad as a ‘boyfriend’.
Just like my friend, I have always been attracted to straight lads. They just turn me on and push my buttons in every way.
Unfortunately, mix this attraction with the fact that I am, by nature and inclination a ‘one-man-band’ and the problems start. This attraction/interest becomes a CURSE!
I do not like the ‘different boy every night’ mentality. I admire those who can easily do this. Pay for sex, then it’s over and finished…time to move on to the next one. No complications, no further involvement. For those people, a straight lad is excellent.
For me though, I crave a relationship. I want/need something more that, I’m sorry, a straight lad CANNOT give. Oh, he can ACT it, he can even make a bloody good job of the pretence if he’s very good, but its NOT TRUE.
A truly straight lad can NEVER feel the same way about you that you feel about him. Simple. You can kid yourself that he does, but that’s all you are doing, kidding yourself. Sooner or later, the REAL THING will come along for him (a woman) and then he will be off to start a ‘REAL’ relationship…..(as he sees it)
The most you can ever hope for with a straight lad is that he will LIKE you, respect you, see you as a ‘mentor’ and maybe a stabilising thing in his life… but he will not feel about you what you would like him to.
I tried a relationship once with a gay, camp lad. Bloody gorgeous lad but he was more camp than a boy scout jamboree….. It didn’t work and I grew to resent even his presence in my life. I often wonder what might have been as the lad was totally devoted to me and would have done anything for me……But, despite this, it just did not work for me.
I honestly feel now that the best course for my life to take is to look for a ‘straight-acting’ GAY lad. Someone who is not in the slightest bit camp, who there is absolutely NOTHING even remotely ‘gay’ about……(except that he likes other males in the bedroom and can certainly have a loving relationship with one!)
So…..(and it’s not even New Year), my resolution is to photograph and video STRAIGHT lads for this blog, but only SLEEP/have a relationship with GAY ones….!
Maybe time to re-assess my life, some of the things I’ve done, some of the things I have held ‘dear’, where I want to ‘be’ in life and how I want to get there…? I do believe that I have (already) started this process…
I’m absolutely serious about this. I’ve had enough of being fucked-over (and up) by straight lads who will NEVER see you as anything more than an ‘arrangement’….
This is one resolution I (hope) to keep!
Is this the beginning of a ‘mid-life crisis?’
Is 45 mid life?
…..or ‘past it?’
BB
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